My faith looks up to Thee
Even as my brokenness
Weighs on me relentlessly
Rendering my call listless
Denying me of joy priceless
Questioning if I deserve this
Discovering & experiencing
The Judas kiss
My faith looks up to Thee
Even as grace & mercy
Defend me
Take the stand
Reporting all the times
They’ve been called
To right my wrongs
To take my hand
To cast my misdeeds
In the sand
Where they no longer define me
My faith looks up to Thee
Even as my eyes refuse to see
Beyond what others have done to me
Denying my complicity
Oversimplifying complexity
With pointed fingers
Wagging sternly
At those who have hurt me
Blaming them and Punishing
Dear God I pray
Heal me
Forgive me
My faith looks up to Thee
Even as internally
I struggle with duplicity
Self pity morphing into loathing
The contradictions seeping out of me
Hypocrisy
Slapping me silly
Even as I try to be
Pious & Holy
Instead of
Straight laced &
Judging
Lacking authenticity
Recalibrate Lord my integrity
My face looks up to Thee
In your eyes I strain to see
Compassion flowing freely
Begging you to love me
Take my shame
And know me
Repair my heart
Relieve my pain
Restrain my sin
Let me breath again
Bind the enemy
Break sins hold on me
Reclaim my life
Reaffirm my Call
Restore my joy
Finances & all
Remember my name
While on others you call
Catch me quick
As I descend & fall
Give me beauty for these ashes
My faith looks up to Thee
Clutching your forgiveness closely
So it can seep inside of me
Mending heart strings melodically
Stirring repentance completely
Helping me forgive truly
Awaken to life restoratively
No more thinking pejoratively
But faithful, Holy & wholeheartedly
Lightening my soul holistically
Activating my call prolifically
Making me release this pain
Get off the cross
Resurrect
And breath
Live free again
My faith looks up to Thee
No longer settling for safety
Or mere proximity
But hungering for
Your Presence
Thriving
Gratefully
Thank you for sharing this. I appreciate it as a whole. I’m grateful that as we journey through our faith walks that He walks with us. Some of my favorite lines,
“My faith looks up to Thee
Clutching your forgiveness closely
So it can seep inside of me
Mending heart strings melodically
Stirring repentance completely
Helping me forgive truly
Awaken to life restoratively
No more thinking pejoratively
But faithful, Holy & wholeheartedly”
Complete repentance! True forgiveness! Awaking to life! By the way, love the upgrade to the website!